where am i

I'm in this strange place. Its a place where I know the characters of Sesame Street better than I know the characters from my prime time tv. Its a place where nothing in my house is safe and it doesn't even matter to me. I can't tell you the last time I dusted or thought that dusting even mattered (scary, i know). There are piles of laundry to do today, but Rowen really wants to play so the laundry will wait one more day. I walk into target and forget about what I really went for and head straight for kid section or the toy section and all my shopping revolves around Carters or Gymboree or the grocery store. Greg has now started writing notes for me to remember when HE needs at the store. Here is my question:

1. Am I always gonna be like this?

I had about a day and a half where I was thinking I was getting parts of myself back, the crafty creative part that can multi-task. Where did I go?
Please don't get me wrong, I love being a mom. I love being home...most days. I read all those books that tell you how amazing it is to stay home...how much joy there is and I believe that...most of the time. It seems they left out the part that some days will be bad. Some days you will want to run away! I can't believe that I am alone in this, RIGHT? or am I?

I am really trying to get out of this slump. I guess it doesn't help that 1. it's winter and 2. i cant really go anywhere (doctors orders). I have to keep my feet up most of the day. How is anyone able to do that with an 18 month-old?

OK. I'm done with the pity party.

Another Girl?

we found out late last week, its another girl. not really sure we wanted to know but the technician blurted it out either way!

so i bet you are all wondering the name....

the winner is Maeve Katherine...we think. lol. the middle name is still in the works but it was my great-great grandmothers name so we'll see.

more updates later. rowen is begging for attention because daddy is working on a project tonight.

I found this awesome things the other day on Etsy!

THIS could make my life so much easier.

I am beginning to LOVE Etsy. A lot.

Crafting

While I was up, I thought I might snoop around the net looking for new things I might make this year. 2010 is my year of setting some reasonable goals and KEEPING them!

While browsing i found THIS and said to myself, 'yes, I will make that'.

A couple of websites/blogs I ran into that i seem to be loving more and more are:

Little Birdie Secrets

Vintage Pearl

Hello My Name is Heather

I am still searching and I love this new venture.

349 Whitmer

This is 349Whitmer. It looks great in the snow...and when there is no snow. I love it, I love it, I love it! I can't say it enough. To be living in such a perfect place! I forget sometimes just how blessed we are but I can now see over and over again when I see these pictures, when I see Rowen and when I say out loud 'this is my life'! WooHoo!




Evidence that we do live there....lol. and that the snow was incredibly deep! Can't wait to post the ones of Rowen sledding. She loved it!

*** Went to the doctors Friday morning. All tests came back negative. Negative always sounds like such a BAD thing. But when it comes to something medical it is one of the BEST words there is out there! I am on what is called 'Modified relaxation bed-rest'. Got me on the real definition. But it just means no excessive lifting of Rowen, no standing for longer that 30 minutes at a time, no marathons (bummer. lol. seriously!) Yup, she actually said that to me. I told her no worries for that one. Had never ran a marathon and didnt plan on it either.
I am yet another ultrasound this coming week and a couple of other doc appointments but things are starting to look up just a bit! The doctors tell me with this shot that I am getting weekly, it SHOULD get me to 35 weeks and then 'poof' out comes this baby. I am going for 37-38 weeks. My standards are a little high but I want this baby to COOK as long as he or she can. I am all about healthy ( and not crying for 7 weeks because I cant hold my baby).

.....so its early. 2:15am early. been watching Rowen sleep. Is that creepy? She is just so....Rowen.


**** New names to think on...I want some votes to. I am definitely torn and Greg seems to be holding fast to some scary names out there. So let me know what you think.

Girls Names:

Maris Amelia

Maeve Louise

Lorelei Elise

Boys Names:

Ephram Hugh

Elijah Hugh

Liam Hugh


....it all might change next week but those seem to be the top six.

The ups and Downs of this

I want to make this for Valentine's Day this year. Or at least I want to try. But first I have to be able to get off my butt and back on my feet. So let's see what the doctor has to say to me on Friday.
* Will she let me move around and call that little 'hurdle' a fluke? Or will she tell me my history tells my story and I must keep my butt firmly planted in that couch of mine?

Oh, poor Rowen. She gets the saw deal. Having to help mommy some. Luckily, my mother was in the neighborhood and decided to stay a couple extra days so that I can 'take it easy and rest'. I have to 'laugh out loud' at that. I am the mother of a 17-month old. Do I have the option of 'taking it easy'?

**** good news: mom and her very helpful and wonderful ways...got our basement organized so we can put more stuff away. And for that I didnt need to inhale tums tonight. YAH! I was able to go through all those horrid boxes of baby clothes (I have been dreading that for months). If this little Herb comes out in a girl form, we are set. If not, and this baby comes with a little winkie I have to say I might be screwed. Not sure I have even thought about having a boy. Is one baby gender so different from the other???
I will take whatever gender...I will take any kind or flavor. I just want a happy healthy baby.

feeling ok today. better than yesterday. positive outlook today. i am refusing to be grumpy (for the most part).