Running on Empty

So we are one day away from the end of February. When did that happen? The past couple of days/weeks I have been feelings pretty out of it. I feel like I am just on autopilot. I am just going through the motions of going to school and working. I feel pretty bad about that. Not only am I suffering in a way, but I am making it pretty hard for my client if I am not really 'all there'. It's that time in the school year where everything is due and mid-terms are happening left and right. Do I know all the information I need to for each mid-term and how will I not get them confused?I feel like I am so wrapped up in myself and making it through (spring break starts MARCH 6th) that I have nothing left to give to my friends, my family, even Greg. I don't mean to be like this, but I am debating whether or not I will make it through and I feel like I have to just cut myself off for a bit. By no means am I complaining.....I am just worn. I cannot wait for Florida....I am going to seriously enjoy my vacation.

A Memory

Today is my grandfathers birthday. Or was his birthday. It's a questionable, isn't it? He passed away almost two years ago (April 5). So it still is his birthday, he's just not celebrating it here on earth. Either way, it's one of those days for me. It's weird that throughout the year there are just certain days that always seem to have some sort of connection. I am hesitant to call my grandmother. She is in Florida, where they both would normally be this time of year. I want to call her, but what do I say. Last year she celebrated Pappa's Birthday with very good friends down there. And last year I called. I should call. I am going down to see her in a couple of weeks. I leave like the 7th of March, it will be nice to get away from this cold, icky weather.
So like I said before, today is a hard day for me. I am not myself. And I don't like that. We have had the pas couple days off, and even today Shippensburg University had a delay. I have never in my life heard of a college having a delay. Very Weird. Oh well. Tomorrow Greg and I are headed to Troy. He has an in-service day at school, and since I now work at the school as well, I do not have school either....Mom and Dad have been telling us that it looks like winter wonderland out in coreyland (where the farm is) and that the snowmobiles are out. We are excited, Greg has never ridden a snowmobile before. My dad used to tell us kids stories about when he was a kid out in coreyland that when it snowed the drifts were as high as the telephone poles.
We used to laugh and think he was joking....well this morning i called my mom and it just so happens that my brother Aaron (farmer) pipes froze and broke at the house, drifts were up 6 feet covering the gate to let the calves in. I tried not to laugh. But my mom, dad and brothers were all out there digging with the tractor, trying to get the calves in and trying to stay ahead of the drifting. It's funny when you are away from it all for so long, you tend to forget what its like where you grew up.......Regardless of this day, and the mood I am in, I am thankful for Greg who keeps me sane and grounded. Those are the things that are important in my life.